So it's been a few days since my last update. I'm sure everyone was just dying to know what's been happening in my life in the past month or so...nothing. That's what I do now, I just kind of sit around. Ok, well that's not entirely true, I do go to work. I applied at another place for a full time job but they haven't called me back yet. I need another job so I can get an apartment and a new puppy!!! I want one that looks like this:
Awwwww!!! I want a cute little Australian Shepherd dog and I will name him Walter...This doesn't mean I don't like Bo or April, but they belong in Houston. My dad would be way too sad if I took Bo away from him and April would be depressed without Bo and Teddy around. She acts like she doesn't like them but I know she does...or I could take April up here with me and then just get my little puppy anyways. That's not a bad plan...
Anyways, so I'm going to Houston on Friday hopefully. I asked for the week of the 4th off and I haven't seen the schedule so I'm not sure if I am actually going to get those days off or not. I'm really hoping that I do...I need a break from this small town life. It's not bad, I really don't mind it up here, but I miss my friends and family and I need to go out! I need a real mall, I need Starbucks and bad drivers and traffic and hobos. Ok so I really don't need all of that stuff, but I just want to see my family and the Astros. That is something I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT live without, no matter where I am, is the Astros.
So, funny story: I learned how to knit so that I could make Sarah's baby a blanket for when it's born. Turns out I'm pretty terrible at it AND my shoulder and elbow are killing me...hahahaha I don't get injured from running or playing sports or anything normal like that, I get injured from KNITTING...oh how the mighty fall...I'm so embarrassed.
Oh, now it's time for a serious story and this one REALLY chaps my ass...when I was younger and dumber than I am now, still in high school, still thinking I'm hot shit, I briefly (6 hours, give or take) dated a football player. I thought it was a good idea because he was a senior and I was a sophomore and I'm sure there were some other reasons I had but that was six years ago. So I "broke up" with him and you would think that's where the story ends. Nope.
He graduates and joins the Marines, gets sent to Iraq, we write letters back and forth, I would get those few early morning phone calls from him, etc. There was always something there between us but we never really acted on it, we just stayed pretty close friends. So it's like that for the next two years, then I graduate and join the Navy, get bounced around and then I'm back in Houston and he's out of the Marines and living in San Antonio.
Over the course of the past four years we saw each other a few times, we hooked up once and every other time we just talked and did some other things that were less bad than hooking up...like I said, there was always something there between the two of us but we never dated again. Mostly because there were a few times we were together and he had a girlfriend that he was cheating on, so I don't trust him AT ALL...anyways, long story short it was like this for about five years and then I pretty much told him I was done with him when I deployed to Afghanistan, but he didn't listen.
Well, my friends don't like him, my sister says he and I have a very unhealthy relationship (which is true) and he just wants to date me for some reason, even though we fight like cats and dogs and I'm a douche to him (also true).
The other night he and I were talking - I had been drinking and he took full advantage of that - and I was talking about my version of paradise and he just started talking about how he could make it so much better, basically blowing hot air up my ass, and then he says that we should be together and like always I said no, but this time I gave him reasons why not. I think they're pretty legit reasons NOT to be with someone, for example, we're not even dating and we fight until we're ready to kill each other and I know he's a cheater so I can't trust him. He turns them into reasons why we should be together, we fight because we care, he cheated on an ex with me and that's the only time he's done it.
I told him that I can't trust him any more than I can throw him and he says, "I swear on my own heart that I would never cheat on you, I really feel like I love you. It's crazy when we are together, we can't keep our hands off each other (false, I can keep my hands to myself, he can't). I can just never see myself cheating on you." AND HALT: I thought we had squashed this at least a year ago, I've told him I don't want to date him, I'm all about being friends but he doesn't seem to understand that...I know he knows I still have some feelings for him but not enough to want to be in a serious relationship.
Anyways, so he continues with, "I want you here with me (in San Antonio), you know I would provide for you, you know I would treat you like you have never been treated before...Come live with me and I promise you that you won't regret it. You won't have to pay for anything, you can go to UTSA with me." Ok, 1) you couldn't pay me enough to live in San Antonio, I HATE THAT PLACE!!! And there is
no way I'm going to go to UTSA. 2) I don't need to be provided for, I can take care of myself, and I like paying for stuff. 3) How the hell does he know how I've been treated before? I guess he's just assuming that every guy I've been with was a total d-bag and he's gonna be my knight in shining armor. Whatever. So I tell him, "I can't live in San Antonio, I hate it there. Besides, I'm not gonna leave Kansas, my sister needs me, I have a life here."
I'm done, that's where my story ends and I think that's where it's gonna stay. I'm not going to encourage anything else from him.
I should find a Kansas farm boy like this one...
Yummy :)