Everyone knows that being in a relationship is not easy. If you want your relationship to work, you have to work at it. Being in a long distance relationship is even harder. I really took for granted the time that Brandon and I were together before I moved and I wish I hadn't. I regret the times I didn't show him how much I appreciate him or how much I love him. Now that I'm in Houston and he's in Kansas we have to work extra hard at our relationship and truly, every day is a struggle because all we have now is the phone. We don't get to see other ever. Maybe once every 8-12 weeks and it sucks and it takes a lot of patience to not want to just give up.
Over the course of this past weekend I found my patience being tried in virtually every way by Brandon. I have wanted to give up, more than once. I have wanted to punch him in his face, more than once. I got pushed to my breaking point and I never want to be there again. I'm not going to go into details on what got us there but it's the worst feeling ever. And from this past weekend, I've learned a lot about myself and my relationship with Brandon, and more than anything, I have learned to be a bit more patient. But, I've also learned that Brandon doesn't listen very well and regardless of what I say to him he's still going to do whatever he wants. That sounds a lot worse than it actually is. Sometimes he listens to me :)
Regardless of how mad he makes me and how much I want to punch him in his very handsome face, I can't imagine my life without him and he makes me infinitely more happy than angry. And that's what I have to focus on. Even though we never get to see each other and even though we are currently leading totally separate lives, it's temporary. It only seems like forever.
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